Significant Other

"The more you reaffirm who you are in Christ, the more your behavior will begin to reflect your true identity!
-Dr. Neil Anderson

He approaches the counter and my heart begins to race.
I am going to mess up his drink.
He reaches the counter, disappointed in his eyes.
I messed up his drink once. A year ago.
It was my first day at work and I was nervous. He is a regular and approached the counter expecting me to be psychic and guess his drink. I mislabeled the cup, resulting in him getting the wrong drink.
He came up to me and explained to me, as if I was hearing impaired and slow, what a big mistake I had just made.
Literally a year later I still get nervous when I have to interact with him.
Insecurity overwhelms me. I really enjoy my job, but whenever he is near, I question myself.
Do I know his drink? Do I know how to make it? Do I know how to make anything?

He came in the other day. Insecurity came fast. He was rude to me again.


The film maker in me, wishes things would play out differently.
He would approach the counter. Say something smart. I would jump onto the counter and get everyones attention and say,
"My name is Amberly Rose... not kid. I am a graduate of college, with enormous dreams. I am a passionate girl that plans on adding beauty to this world while I am here. I graduated with a degree in film and hope to one day make ridiculously great movies that you will one day sit in a theatre and be captivated by. But when the end credits roll up and my name appears you won't even recognize the name because you can't see past the black hat and green apron before you. I am more than a barista that happened to mess up your drink once. I am Amberly Rose Lania, daughter of the most beautiful parents in the world. Sister to the kindest girls ever created. But most importantly God, the creator of everything beautiful, finds beauty and worth in me!"
At this point I would step down. The store would be completely silent and my boss would release me.

Why is it that we let moments this like this get to us? When will we come to the point of understanding God's view of us. At work I should remind myself of my true identity. In friendships I should remind myself of my value. For my future, my dreams, I need to remind myself of my worth.

I love what Pastor Aaron Sterns jokes about when speaking on dating. He say that when the boy picks the girl up for the date he should say, "Hey I am looking forward to tonight. We are going to have a great night. But I just want to let you know that I am infinitely valuable in the eyes of God. I am chosen and created by God. So whether you accept me or reject me tonight will not change His love for me. So whether or not you like me by the end of the night will not change my value. Ready to go out?

God loves us. We are never over-looked by Him. He is interested in us. He accepts us, He will NEVER reject us.

I find myself daily measuring myself to what others think of me. If I mess up at work, that day my identity will be a mess up. If I get in an argument with someone I will find my identity in that failure.
My identity should be solely in Christ.

John 15:5 says that we are a branch of Jesus Christ, the true vine, and a channel of HIs life.
John 15:16 says we have been chosen and appointed to bear fruit.
I Corinthians 3:16 we are God's temple.
2 Corinthians 1:21-22 we have been established, anointed and sealed by God.
Romans 8:31-39 we are free from condemnation, and nothing can separate us from His love.
John 1:12 we are His children
John 15:15, as His disciples, we are friends of Jesus.
I Corinthians 6:19-20 we have been bought with a price and we belong to God.
Colossians 1:13-14 We have been redeeemed and forgiven of all our sins.
Ephesians 1:3-8 we have been chosen by God and adopted as His child.
Hebrews 4:14-16 we have direct access to the throne of grace through Jesus Christ.
Colossians 2:9-10 WE ARE COMPLETE IN CHRIST.