As I walked into her room I knew I was about to meet someone
very special. Sitting up in her bed, her tiny 7 year old frame sat there as if
she was an actress ready for an interview. She was merely breathtaking. She smiled so big, I was immediately in love.
I introduced myself to her and she scrunched her nose and immediately pulled up
a crayon colored mask she had just finished. “Oh you are going to play shy Lex*?”
I evidently got her all wrong as she lowered her mask and smiled, her eyes were
so dark and beautiful, she had such long eyelashes, she was the most beautiful
thing I had seen in a long time. I sat with her as she described to me all the
cute boys on Disney and told me of all the prizes she has won for being so
smart. We made a sand art butterfly that she named after herself and had me
place in the window. “Everyone needs to see her,” she said referring to the
pride she had of her art piece. I left that room saying to myself, “everyone
needs to see her.” I was sent to her room because she had no visitors, I was
supposed to keep her company and I was the one that left so inspired and
encouraged. I wondered to myself ‘why does no one visit her?’ ‘everyone needs
to see her.”
That same morning my mom was talking to me about my uncle
being very ill and although he has struggled with kidney issues for years now
they think he may have leukemia. We joined hands to pray for him in the living
room. As we prayed my mom’s prayers turned to me “God, help Amber today, help
her to know she is loved, it is hard not feeling loved and not knowing you are
loved. Father help her to remember she is a star. Help her remember she is a
star, she shines brightly for You.”
As much as I tried not to cry I felt my heart melt. I don’t
voice it much but in the moment I felt like God was so near and He knew all my
insecurities and ‘lack of’s’ and despite all of it He was saying He still
believes I am a star.
Life is so bright and colorful, I have no excuse not to be a
star. Lex is a very ill girl and she was the brightest star I have seen in a
long time! I was reading the other day out of I John the difference between
light and darkness. A stumbling block for me is lingering in darkness and
listening to the enemy’s opinion. I need to cling to the Light, walk in Light
and love in Light. I am challenged to stay colorful because “everyone needs to
see her.”
