"I want to love you with my heart, I fear I do not know where to start."
Holiness.
I want to please the Lord. I want Him to be proud of me. I feel like I have been blinded, blinded by the American church's idea of living a life pleasing to the Lord.
Where did we get these lame ideas. We have been raised to believe God accepts us the way we are, He doesn't. He expects us to change, to leave our mundane, repetitive lives and die to Him.
According to Luke 14: 25-27 (CEV)
"Large crowds were walking along with Jesus, when he turned and said: You cannot be my disciple, unless you love me more than you love your father and mother, your wife and children, and your brothers and sisters. You cannot come with me unless you love me more than you love your own life. You cannot be my disciple unless you carry your own cross and come with me"
I can honestly tell you I love things more than I love God at times. Driving to work today I saw a sticker on the back of this man's truck, it said "God loves you" and had a picture of a cross. It broke me. This makes no sense to me, I am the chief of sinners.
1 Timothy 1:15 (ESV)
15 The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost.
There are times in our lives that we are honored when someone remembers us. We are overwhelmed when people go all out for our birthday or for special occasions. We are overwhelmed and say things like, "You are too kind." or "You really didn't have to do this" or my favorite, "I don't deserve this."
Why do we get so easily overwhelmed by these occasions but so easily overlook the sacrifice of Jesus. Why am I not crying out everyday, "God why? Why did you do this for me. You are too kind, I don't deserve you!"
What a hypocrite I am. God, forgive me, forgive me. Help me to see your beauty and to be overwhelmed by Your love once again! God, you truly are the best thing that has ever happened to me. God thank you for remembering me, You never forget me. Forgive me!
